The unknown that awaits after the rain...

Have you ever look through a rainy window? What were you thinking about and how do you feel?

I experienced my today... On my way back home, it started to rain heavily and I look through the rainy windows that was beside me on the train. Those rain water that hit onto the windows, they stream down like tears streaming down my face. And I felt so gloomy and lonely at that moment.

I put the negative feeling aside and awaits for the unknown after the rain. I hope it will be something that I have been awaiting for...

I feel...

How I will feel when I am over him?

I feel free

I feel happy

I feel confident

I feel relieve

I feel unafraid if I meet him on the street

I am keen that would be to get on with life...

Be Brave to say good bye to Loneliness

到底什么是自己要找的的幸福快乐？

工作到一半就突然间想起一些往事。虽然，它只不过是一段过去的记忆，但是它是一段快乐的过去。
我常常在不知觉中对自己的人生不满，不快乐，不知足。那也还不是因为经历过不快乐的事，而觉得往后的日子里因该不会再找到快乐和幸福这种东西。
那我是不是应该问问自己，到底什么是自己要找的的幸福快乐？

我不够幸福快乐吗？
我才二十八。。。到过了美国的三大城市，欧洲-柏林，等等。有个稳定的工作，有爱我的家人和朋友。我很感恩，感谢那些一路来陪着我，关心我的家人朋友们。你们的不离不弃我都鸣谢在心。

幸福快乐是自己去追寻的！这句话我一定要记得！yeah!

Live a life with pride and happiness! by Laura Max Nelson

心情

哦!我是怎么了。噢。。。 好想念哦。一定是荷尔蒙失调了。真是受不了!

Some little thoughts...

Everything didn't come to a stop because of what have happened. The sunrise mark each beginning of the day and the sunset marks the end of the day. Everyday passes by in such a routine which lead me to forget abt smth and that makes me feel less painful. I numb the pain and move on everyday with hope, hoping that I could walkout from this totally. I made changes to my life, a change that I mark a new beginning to my life. I get to enjoy more things, experience a new journey. I understand more and use a different perspective to look at stuff. I change a lot more to a better me. I hope with all these changes it brings me to a new level and soon I will walk or from the pain I am having. I am still waking up everyday missing "him".

Simple Joy by Piya Tan

Love is
To love life is to love the most valuable thing there is:
love not just your body, but more so your heart,
for, your body may not listen to you,
but your heart will if you try hard enough.

You cannot love just a part of a person,
for, then you will miss all the rest:
to love the whole person is never to miss them,
for, they are always with you in your heart.

Love is a spacious silence,
without which there is no music,
the healing stillness between breaths
that you feel only in letting go.

Well... what were you doing when the clock strike 12!

Cinderella change back into her normal clothes coated with cinder...
The carriage turn back into a pumkin and the horsemen change back into blind mice...
A new day started again...
How about you?

I.... was text one of my favourite girlfriend!

残酷的温柔。。。

 

你像往常一样的温柔 轻轻的看着我

 

慢慢的说但最好是分手

 

慢慢的说你是你我是我

Heartbroken

Crushed with sorrow or grief.

Can a broken heart be mend?

Recently, there are many articles touching on how science help people to understand more about human, especially on the physiological perspective. Counsellor, physcologist and motivator speakers are working towards science to reach out to people who need help.
Have you wonder how people who been through terrible experience has the ability to live on. It is interesting to find out how it works. I can't explain why and how using science could help but I would say being strong is the best remedy to recovery road.
A master said this in an article, all of us has a inner tool box which we could use it when we need. What does the tool box contains? It has mercy, optimistic, responsibility, aggresive, joy, honesty, trust and thanksgiving.
Currently, I am on the road of recovery and I am proud to say I am doing well now. My inner tool box help me to overcome it. The love from my family and friends allow me to gain back my confidence and feel so much in love again.
My broken heart is mend but it will never be the same anymore. I am a new meili and I look forward to my new future.

A keep coming back feeling...

Sometimes it just come and go like a wind. It allow me to immerse myself into it totally and out of it clearly when it leaves....

Feeling fortunate I

After reading the article on this year human rights campaign, I told myself that I should feel very lucky. This year campaign focus a big part on women rights, a big focus is on the stories behind the women in developing countries (middle east and etc).  

For most women becoming an adult is an eventful moment but to some women it is a fearful life journey has just started. A country culture and belief caused an inequality between men and women. Culture controlled women to allow their men feel more superior and powerful. How can this unfair treatment survive for so long? We are already in the 21st century.  If they oppose their fate and turn things the other way round, they will be consider as a disgrace to their families. No one will be proud of them even their own mother and their children. As such, some women still went on to change their fate. Their bravery, endurance and confident pull them through the difficulties.

Well, I am a woman of the 21st century and I live in a country of equality. I have a much better life here so why should I still feel not contented…

don't dwell in the past, don't dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment.

life journey doesn't just stop for you...

 

My little pain...

Memory had been my best enemy.
"All these while I have tried my best not to remember anything."
"Everything must be just a dream. Did the life before the breakup really exist at all? Had he ever existed? It was blurred."
I wanted to pluck out those memories that kept invading my head and my sore heart...

相遇，相知，相爱。

怎么样才算是真爱？

两个人在一起究竟是命运还是缘分呢？

是不是有缘才能相遇呢？

相遇的人不一定能相知，

相知的人不一定能相爱，

相爱的人不一定能相守。

命运让两个人遇上，但它不一定会成全两个人的命运。

或许它只是单纯的让两个人 遇上。

Sweet hereafter = 甜美的来生

... 脑袋和身体无法复原，灵魂没有回来，处于身心分离的状态。但是小夜子继续活着。随着时间过去，安静地生活和工作、怀抱感谢，她的灵魂慢慢跟上了身体。

读了这一句短文后，我告诉了自己我也一样能和小夜子一样找回自我！好好的过自己的人生！

Sunday morning!

Travel all the way to bishan in the morning to do my nails so that I can have the rest of the afternoon for other stuff.
Happy sunday Everyone!

Memories

Some random memories pop up which put on a smile on my face. Although it hurts but I was a fortunate and happy girl then.

My fairy godson and goddaugthers

I am the fairy godmother of three now! Congratulation to my dear friend Xue Bin and Desmond, both of you are daddy and mummy now!  It seems like… yesterday we were still in our grey uniforms laughing and running around, haha. I am so happy for both of you. Both girls are so adorable, they will grow up to be a fine lady.

Eve and Faith,

I am fairy godmother Meili. Welcome to our big family, I am so proud of both of you and I will continue to be proud of you. Fairy godmother will always be there for you. Keep your little secrets and grant you little wishes. So have to remember to always be good to your daddy and mummy. I love you J.

Jayden,

Same for you… seeing you growing up each day reminds me that I am growing stronger each day. Glad to have you as my little fairy godson. Your smiles chase away billions of my unhappy memories. Be good and respectful to your dad and mum. Love you J.

Jayden

Eve and Faith