Memories

Some random memories pop up which put on a smile on my face. Although it hurts but I was a fortunate and happy girl then.

My fairy godson and goddaugthers

I am the fairy godmother of three now! Congratulation to my dear friend Xue Bin and Desmond, both of you are daddy and mummy now!  It seems like… yesterday we were still in our grey uniforms laughing and running around, haha. I am so happy for both of you. Both girls are so adorable, they will grow up to be a fine lady.

Eve and Faith,

I am fairy godmother Meili. Welcome to our big family, I am so proud of both of you and I will continue to be proud of you. Fairy godmother will always be there for you. Keep your little secrets and grant you little wishes. So have to remember to always be good to your daddy and mummy. I love you J.

Jayden,

Same for you… seeing you growing up each day reminds me that I am growing stronger each day. Glad to have you as my little fairy godson. Your smiles chase away billions of my unhappy memories. Be good and respectful to your dad and mum. Love you J.

Jayden

Eve and Faith

Your words and their spaces...

"If all the words were joined together, they wouldn't makes sense, or, at least, they would be extremely hard to decipher. The spaces are crucial."

You have mastered writing the words but you have not yet mastered the blank spaces. When it jumps from one word to the next, it gets lost.  --- THE WITCH OF PORTOBELLO, Paulo Coelho.

 

Whenever I feel empty things that I do not want to think about take over…  They filled up the spaces.

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It seems so difficult to move on everyday but I know I need to. No one can decide my own fate but me.

Some days, I used the energy  to miss something of the past.  So I decide to write a blog each day to keep all these misses and pains inside here.

Today is fourteen February two thousand thirteen, rainy day. Ladies holding their flowers and love is in the air.  Well, I am not alone I always have a lovely bunch of friends around me sending me their love.

But some things are not the same anymore...

I miss you. I miss the days we spent together. The small talks we have together. The good and bad news we shared. The love, care and concern you showered me.

I always asked myself, what change you and why did it change you. But no answer came because it was you who change, it was you who let go and it was you who hurt me the most.

Changes did it and I believe that such a change means something. I hope I will get to understand these meaning soon.

世间的痛苦和快乐不操控在别人的手里，我们是自己幸福的约定者。

The V-day

For HER... For HIM...what to drink for vday... what to eat for vday... kind of driving me to my limit.
Buck up Meili! Confidence is what u need.  Gain it and don't lose it.